March 8, 2014

情話綿綿正好眠

情話,有誰不愛聽?

石器時代的大男人出去打獵、生死未卜,女原始人要以繩結、石洞畫籌去表達思念。
古時要飛鴿傳書。
中古世紀要以信差傳遞,羽毛筆加香水唇印的... 一張手抄情詩。
上兩世紀,開始以話波震動傳聲筒(即:電話)、雙音多頻撥號,語音數位採樣...
現代: SMS, ICQ, MSN... Email, Whatsapp, Skype, FaceTime, FB inbox...
每一個年代的情人,都在緊密跟隨時代的步伐,傳達他/她們(來自星星的...)的悄悄話。

自有「情人」的世界以來,沒有如現代如此 intense 地交換情話綿綿的新紀元。
手機不離手,每三分鐘就可以問:「Baby 在做什麼?」「在掛念你。」
雖然大家只是兩地鐵站之隔,都好像有著旺洋大海、千山萬水的思念程度。
也難怪。愛情的本質就是:誇。

包括誇大對方的好、對方的愛、對方的肉緊、對方的肌肉 (!)...
時間會被無限伸張擴大。一日不見,如隔三X 。

頭昏腦脹之時,人便容易言過其實。
嗱,就試試在腦海快速搜尋,可有說過一些話,恨不得坐上時光機,為過去自己「掌嘴」?
「沒有你我會死。」
「你是我今生最愛的人。」
「我不想再被另一個人吻我...了。」
「我會娶妳的!」( 急色男的經典喉擒對白!)
「我永遠不會離開你! 永遠!!!」(!!! X 100000)
「我愛你。」(雖然是必說的情深的一句。但往往,回望一段逝去的愛,
往往會發現自己當日說得很幼稚... 甚至,很無恥。)

事過境遷、時移世易。也不一定要怪誰。
只是,我有時難免覺得:「蝦,枉你講得出過那些話... 囉。」
雖然,難道我又沒有說過類似的那些... 話?
寫過的,有時更令自己想死。十年之後午夜夢迴,禁不住許願:
希望某些書信已被堆田、焚化。亞門。

開始有些年紀以後。(可能是上星期才開始接受自己「有些年紀」...)
發現自己的說話變得小心翼翼。
很多時甚至會把說話反芻、扣喉、回味、再吞... 直至說服得了自己。

也不是怕證據確鏧。
雖然我自己,沒有刻意保留什麼留言訊息的習慣。
電郵每當 98% 飽滯之時,通常會閉起眼刪一些掉一些... 當中不免有「寶」... 也罷。
怕的是:話出傷人。
什麼關係都好,怎樣的情愫都好。我希望自己:說得出,做得到。
又或者,行雲流水、詩詞歌賦、星星白雲北極光... 風花雪月,夠好。就不要說將來。
肯定做得出,再說。甚至最好的是:做了,至說出口,未遲。
不要把任何一種人類愛降格為廉價的愛情吧。

情話可以是毒藥。不宜多服。
假的情話好像安樂死:讓你含笑而終。然而它的道德價值十分值得懷疑。
說一句話之前,不要讓十年後的自己,後悔。
特別是情話。


Message from Medjugorje, Jan 2 2015

"Dear children, I am here among you as a mother who desires to help you to come to know the truth. While I lived your life on earth I had knowledge of the truth, and by this alone, a piece of Heaven on earth. That is why I desire the same for you, my children. The Heavenly Father desires pure hearts filled with the knowledge of the truth. He desires for you to love all those whom you meet, because I also love my Son in all of you. This is the beginning of coming to know the truth. Many false truths are being offered to you. You will overcome them with a heart cleansed by fasting, prayer, penance and the Gospel. This is the only truth and it is the truth which my Son left you. You do not need to examine it much. What is asked of you, as I also have done, is to love and to give. My children, if you love, your heart will be a home for my Son and me, and the words of my Son will be the guiding light in your life. My children, I will make use of you, apostles of love, to help all of my children to come to know the truth. My children, I have always prayed for the Church of my Son, and so I also ask the same of you. Pray that your shepherds may come to shine forth with the love of my Son. Thank you."